I still think about how I used to think about you

my dark prince,

I still think about how I used to think about you.  I think of the desperate and obsessive feeling you made me go through.  All the pain I went through just because you existed.  How my body reacted from the slightest swept of your leg against mine when you were sitting next to me.  How everything in this world became tasteless the second my eyes laid on you.  I remember all of it.
It was such an overwhelming feeling that today, it is curious to find that you no longer have this magic on me.
You... are really something I cannot forget.  You made me discover the creepiest part of my inner stalker and maso side...

I am glad it's finally over.  It's over but as it is known, scars remain as I still think about how I used to think about you.

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my white prince,

Was I so careful with you.  I didn't want to get back into the mess I've been with the dark one.  I did not tell you anything.  I stayed polite.  I suppressed my creepiness.  I kept my distance from the line I cannot cross.
So much that now.. I don't even see you anymore.  I even forget about you.  And now, I am thinking about how I used to think about you.

I still remember the way you nodded. You would close your eyes in the process, smile slightly before slowly reopening them.

dead blog

... boy has it been a while i havnt posted here..
i originally intended to make it as a kind of anonyme personal diary where i can share my slice of life and connect with ppl but obviously no ones freaking paying attention to this bloggling shit rofl.. no one sending msg or replying.. kinda dead honestly.. im gonna change to tumblr or smthg after ive cleaned up some stuffs up in here..

or maybe ill just leave it there... :/
o well
selfiieee :D