I'm way too vague about my last post too. Like what the hell am i saying kind of feeling.
Oh well I'll just say it or they'll be no point in for this blog.. I guess what was going on was that I went over a phase of infatuation.
I was infatuated, for the first time of my life, passionately and intensely, over this person.. that boy. And boy was it terrible. It was literally slow lethal poison through my veins. I would plan all night for him, sleep at 1, to wake up at 3, take night bus, and wait in front of his house for fucking 5 hours until he would show up. He never showed up. (thx lord he hadn't) or there'd be witnesses that I have few criminal harassments in my records.
I won't say all the stupid things I've done just to see him but I can say it was shitty stupid one after the other. Simply put, he was my God. My Ruler. Air. Everything.
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I'm over now. I saw him again. I wasn't even thrilled to see him. I was glad certainly, but I didn't want to desperately touch him like I used to. It's funny how I would have died to have him ask me out (as friends) to hang out, but now I'm almost indifferent. I have to thank Wushu for that. If I would have known there was a cure to that obsession much earlier.. I'd fight obsession with passion. Sigh... well I'm free now right? Ty, Thank you to all my seniors! I Love you all! *LOUD TRIUMPH LAUGH*
Ahh Now I can finally put my mask back on.
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