simply put, my IQ drops by 50% when its about him/her, whether that person is around or not! I become stupid and careless. It's like I don't have respect for myself anymore.
I do idiotic things that would lead me to a homeless and shitjob life. I'd even go as far as to travel a 3h traffic just to see a glimpse of a face for fucking 3 seconds. I'd go in the opposite direction of my way despite the fact im late, so I can have a casual conversation with that person a little longer. And I'll spit the beans to admit I'd fantasize during the most inappropriate moments.
And the worst feeling i don't wanna get into anymore is those fucking 1 sided-loves. Fuck it's annoyingly painful. If only I could control who I could fall in love with, that would be just great.
I think it's about time I confront reality.... I will never be with someone that turns me on. NEVER. Because I'm off the game!!!
See it like this:
I am AQUA color. But my type of guy is the type RED... that likes the RED type...
If I could choose... I'd be RED, but I was born and raised AQUA. How sad those ppl who can't like or accept the way they are... I know AQUA is an awesome unique color y'know.. but I can't help it.. to stare longingly at the RED...
Quote I just found that describes my current situation pretty well:
- I hate being in love. I hate the overwhelming feeling of being lost in another person.
4. Unleashing the inner stalker. “I will only peek at her Facebook albums.” Seven hours later, you’ve saved all her photos and read every inane post on her wall. - Nadir Hassan
7. The Bond-villain scheming. Well, she gets off work at 6 pm, so if I take another two hours to file this report maybe I’ll run into her on the stairs and then I can tell her that her dress looks nice. Next thing you know, she’ll agree to marry me. - Nadir Hassan
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